Monday Confessions

Sometimes I pick up whatever clothes are on my floor and wear them day after day.

During my 1st week in kindergarten I discovered the girls bathroom had a pink sign and the boy bathroom had a blue sign. I did not like this. Blue became my favorite color. (I am not against pink. See photo).

While we’re on the topics of bathrooms…During my 1st three months of being pregnant, almost every time I used a public restroom, I’d wonder if I was going to miscarry. AND then I’d have elaborate daydreams about who I would tell, how upset I would be, fainting in the stall etc…

Yesterday I watched Little Miss Sunshine on TV and cried through the entire thing.

I love photography, but I love my relationships with humans more.

I’ve never been in a tanning bed.

When I dream about my little sister, Anna, she is usually under the age of 5.

I wish I had dark, long eyelashes.

I am a naturally positive person, but I have a dark side. Ask Grant.

Tradition for traditions sake kind of bugs. Let’s give actions meaning people.

I believe in positive and negative energy flow.

Sometimes I go to bed without washing my face, flossing or brushing my teeth. It’s just too much effort.

I wasn’t even that ready to get pregnant…and now I worry and think about our baby all day long.

I also worry that with a scrub as their Mom, our kids will look homeless until about 18. BUT they will be happy and carefree and dreamers!

I wonder if my kids will want to be dreamers?

Grant says not everyone cares SO much about “meaning”. I disagree.

No matter how hard I try, a pile of papers always forms on the left side of my desk.

People keep telling me “Oh, just you wait!”, when I say that I’m tired or stressed or xyz. I know I have never been a mom BUT I have cared for children a lot AND believe me when you work full time for yourself you know what tired and stressed feels like.

I might just surprise all of those negative energy sucks and be a very average but adequate mother.

AND I’m planning on loving my baby. How’s that for mother of the year?

(inspired by my former bride and now friend’s blog, word for word. Get a warm cup a tea and read the whole thing.)


16 thoughts on “Monday Confessions

  1. love this. i may be inspired to do something similar. love that picture of you. awesome! 🙂 ps. sometimes i go to bed without doing any of that stuff also. i totally understand “it’s just too much effort.”


  2. I love to hear that you don’t always wash your face and brush your teeth at night, it makes me feel sooo much better! It’s just way too much effort sometimes! AND, the bathroom thing. Just had a dream about a public bathroom the other night and woke up feeling all gross. I’ve always been digusted by them and would ALWAYS go outside if possible!! Hope you’re feeling great 🙂


  3. Rachel I love how you open up! You are very carefree and caring at the same time. I don’t think anyone doubts what a good and loving mom you will be. Just know that people will judge or second guess the things you do or how you do them just because you are “new” at it and they think they have all the answers, but just remember no one was given a manual on how to raise children and it does take a village.



  4. This post made me cry and Laugh! … In a GOOD way! I love your honesty and I totally relate. PS You are going to be an AMAZING mother! Cant wait to meet little Thurston/Porter!


  5. I love all of my readers. Thanks for indulging me and my inner most thoughts.

    I am taking village applications to help raise my child. If you are interested please apply.



  6. i absolutely love this post! i might have to steal the idea because to get everything out there just sounds like you would feel better. even if it is that you wish to have darker longer eyelashes…..

    love your pictures rachel!! so excited for you to be a mom and a fabulous one at that!!


  7. I thought I was the only one who did the public restroom miscarriage daydream thing! I would sit down and think “If it happened here, who would I call? Everyone would stare at me for all of a sudden sobbing or screaming…” very strange. I am 99% past that stage now (I’m a little over 15 weeks :)).


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